In the past year I have found it hard to do what I feel comes so natural to me. Writing is like breathing, something I need to do to keep myself alive. I love writing my blogs, but I have honestly felt lost for some time and had no idea what to write or what to do next. It’s a strange feeling as I am always organised and once, I finish planning something, I am already on to the next thing to plan.  Being used to having every little detail of my life planned and knowing with nothing planned, there are now no boundaries or limitations to block what is meant for me. I would be lying if I said that I didn’t find that thought kind of scary.

We change so much as human beings over the space of our lives, from children into young adults, then from mature adults into our more senior years. Some changes happen to people much sooner and more frequently than others and for some other people not so much changes as they may have limited their opportunities and have minimal spiritual growth.

This current phase of life and at my age, I know I have changed and I am still growing, I am not the person I used to be and I have a greater understanding of who I am and who I most certainly am not. I feel strongly about my beliefs and feel like for the first time I have a voice, but the truth is, I am not quite sure how to use it. I previously said lost, but I believe it’s more resistance. It’s like standing between two worlds, one is pulling me back, while I am trying to place my feet in front and walk into the new phase.

Wouldn’t it be nice to have a crystal ball to see what our life was going to look like? To know whether we were headed in the right direction and if we could get a sneak peek of our future self? My problem is I am inpatient and want everything now! Unfortunately, we don’t have that crystal ball, and we are forced to make decisions in the moment and trust that it will all work out for the best.

It can be extremely scary making any form of change and especially if you are going through the growth phase. Most people want the change without the inconvenience! That would be nice, but it doesn’t work that way. We require pain to grow, that’s why they call them growing pains. They make us feel things we didn’t think were possible and take us out of our comfort zone. At the time you cannot see why you need to endure this pain, but later when you have stepped into the new phase and look back, you can see that shredded skin and realise it was painful, but you were ready, and your body no longer required it.

Right or wrong, regardless of the path you choose to travel, you are going to learn and grow from it. Sometimes just because it is the right decision, doesn’t make it any easier to make and other times they are the ones that hurt us the most.

A lot of people live with regret and fear, as they feel that they haven’t fully lived their lives true to themselves and have worried about what others would think of them or they believe it’s too hard and unachievable, so therefore decided it would be easier to shy away and give up. At the end of the day we have one life, and we all have a choice if we want to LIVE it for ourselves or for others.

The question we all need to ask ourselves is: Where do you see your life in 20 years, wherever that place is, start working on making that happen today, doesn’t mean you have to make any drastic changes, you just need to consciously decide what you do and don’t want and what you will tolerate and start becoming that person today. I know that for myself, once I made that decision everything began to make sense and those resistance blocks began to come down and clear.

I hope you all have a wonderful rest of your week, be true and kind to yourself and others and please remember… every day is a new chance to try, it’s a chance for a fresh start, try and find something new daily that you love about yourself, affirmations are the key to self-acceptance and don’t ever give up on yourself or your dream… Life is too short to be mediocre.

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