All I can say is what a week it has been, I had a birthday, got a new job and then had a major flashback from the past. It’s funny how sometimes life feels like it is moving so slow, it feels as if nothing is happening but when you look back at those times you realize that everything was happening you just couldn’t see it.
That is exactly how I felt this week. I was driving in an area I hadn’t for a very long time, seven years to be exact when I had this thought come over me to drop into my previous employer where I had worked for many years and to see how they were all doing. It had been seven years to be exact seen I had seen any of them.
Not knowing what to expect, I dropped in just to say a quick hello. At first, they didn’t recognize me, not because they had forgotten me, but because I had physically changed so much, the truth is in seven years I had grown up. The last they had seen me, I had shorter bleached blonde hair and was around fifteen kilograms heavier. Their reaction to my new appearance shocked me as it wasn’t new to me, to me, I had looked like this for years and when I was being asked questions about what was happening in my life and I then realised how in seven years it felt like nothing had changed but everything in my life was different.
I stopped cutting my hair every week, I decided to grow it out and stopped colouring it, I decided that natural is best and now struggle to let anyone touch my hair as I am paranoid that they will cut too much off. I got healthy and stopped eating foods that didn’t reward or serve a purpose to my body, I had moved house three times, buying the last time, I had written my first book and had it published, I am engaged to be married, but thinking back it was just the physical changes that people could see in that time but to me it was the person I am today, the personal growth I have received in that period was priceless.
The difference I could see in myself and I when I was thinking about all the life challenges I had overcome, I felt incredibly proud of myself for doing so. I now see it and I am grateful for the weight, as now I have a great relationship with food and I respect and look after my body. I am grateful for the past and each and every obstacle as it has opened many other doors, and because of those obstacles, I am stronger, wiser, confident and brave when it comes to life and taking risks and as I believe only good can come from whatever happens.
Life changes, sometimes we see it straight away and sometimes it takes an event to look back and realize but that is the beautiful thing about life, it is forever moving, growing, evolving and we are given so many opportunities to grow into the people we want to be. It is never too late, and when something happens and you are struggling to deal with it just remember it’s not forever and it will eventually pass. Everything happens for a reason, so take a deep breath and remember everything is working out how it is supposed to and you will grow and learn from this so be grateful in advance for your future.
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