Hey everyone, I hope you are doing well. We all have those days where we feel like we should have just stayed in bed and there’s nothing wrong with feeling this way! It doesn’t matter how many great things you have going on in your life, you can still feel this way, after all you are human. Sometimes I wake up feeling like I can conquer the world, with an unstoppable confidence and other days I question what I am doing.
We all deal with things differently, and our perception of what our life should already look like doesn’t help. It only puts pressure on yourself and creates a negative environment. As a teenager, I thought I would be married with children by thirty. I am now almost thirty-one, still not married and have no children. It’s funny because as a teenager, I thought thirty was old, now that I am here, I feel that I still have so much I want and need to do for myself and I must say, I feel far from old!
Saying you are fine when you are not, is more damaging to yourself than others. Others will shrug it off, thinking “she’s fine” when you really feel as if you are dying inside.
As an Aquarian I will take on everything around me, I can get pushed, challenged and my boundaries tested and will keep forgiving until I feel completely smothered by bullshit, then I snap and completely close down. Once this happens, I find it very difficult to come back, something I am continually working on, not for others, but for my own sake.
Blaming others for your problems, is the first mistake. I have learned that many times over. Every let down, betrayal and disappointment I have ever felt has ended up helping me in some way. Not at the time obviously. At the time I had the same emotions as everyone else. I felt sadness and anger, but when they faded, a feeling of satisfaction as for whatever reason that was not meant for me, or I needed to learn something from this and the most important fact was that I survived it.
“I’ve run through rainbows and castles of candy
And I’ve cried a river of tears from the pain
I tried to dance with what life had to hand me
And if I could, I’d do it all over again”
Stevie Nicks
Some days are going to test and challenge you, that’s life. Some will be what dreams are made of. It’s not what you see in the mirror, but what is left inside you willing to fight for you, your dreams, and your desires. The mirrors show us what we look like and not who we are! I know who I am and what I deserve. I know I am not perfect, far from it, nobody is. I know that beneath my makeup and behind my smile, I am just a girl who wishes for the world and I will never give up on that. The truth is, everything that has ever hurt or challenged me, I would go through it all again to be who I am today.
I hope you all have a wonderful rest of your week, be true and kind to one another and please remember… Every day is a new day to try, you can quit your day job, just don’t ever give up on yourself or your dream.
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